That day sunitha was looking really very cute, at around 10 in the night when me and my wife entered in her house she was in the dress in which she was suppose to go to bed, long t-shirt and a tight slacks type lower. Most interesting thing which really appealed me in her appearance at that time was her makeup, that day for the first time I saw her in the makeup of married woman,maroon color bindi, a colored dot in the middle of the forehead and red color mark made from sindoor, red color holy powder on the upper edge where hairs start as a symbol of marriage was looking astonishing, and gold and black beaded Mangalsutra around her neck. She greeted me with a smile, saying Hi, Rahul (me) Hi, Deepa (my wife).
Me and sunitha were childhood friends and after marriage she was living in States with her husband, I was living where I was living from my childhood, in next to next house from where she use to live with her mother before marriage( father was not alive, passed away nearly 10 years back).
We were getting face to face nearly after 5 years, first time after her marriage, neither I was present in her marriage as I was on my tour to South India which I tried to avoid at that time but failed nor she attended my marriage as for her it was really difficult to fly back to India just to attend one marriage occasion.
Anyway I could see that she was not moved much even after one issue, and apart from physical appearance, nature wise she was as she use to be long time back, very talkative, open hearted and very down to earth (at least with me). That day around 10 we all were sitting in their living room and chit chatting and we both were really very happy to see each other,
as it could be seen on our faces, because we both were smiling while looking at each other again and again. I don’t know if my wife would have noticed that too, because I was not bothered about anything, after a long long time I was meeting my best friend, with whom I use to go to school and with whom I use to play in the evening from the time I can recall my childhood.
Moreover my wife knew about sunitha(that she is my childhood friend), as we were in touch through facebook and she was in our friends list, she could see (my wife ) every thing going between me and sunitha. As such we did not have much in the past of that type, except once when we tried kissing on her terrace after lot of hesitation.
I still remember we both were really very confused and when we were about to start kissing she warned me saying, “Rahul agar tune kiss karte hue mujhe kahin haath lagaya to maar khayega” means I was not suppose to touch her while kissing. That day we kissed 5-6 times and I knew that she really felt good doing that, though she never accepted this at that time.
I knew she liked it because she agreed to do it one more time without saying “no” even once when I asked her for one more kiss and then one more and then one more, we kissed and explored each other’s mouth completely till we heard some voice of footsteps coming from stairs, as if someone is rising to terrace.
Well it was long time back, and now we both were married and we both were parents too, my baby girl was nearly one year elder than her child and at that time both of them were playing in front of our eyes. Her boy was scrolling on floor and my daughter was walking here and there around him with a toy truck.
Anyway that day we chit chatted for more than one hour about our past and childhood, (not about that kissing on terrace) and finally we came back to our house to sleep. I don’t know what was happening to me, I was again and again thinking about sunitha, her cute face was floating in front of my eyes and I admit that I was getting sexually attracted towards her.
Once my wife teased me after reaching home saying “kya baat hai, sunitha se milkar bahut chahak rahe ho” (means you seem happy after meeting sunitha) I responded with a smile and spoke, “haan, after all she is my childhood friend, we have studied together in a same school rather in same class till our high school” Deepa, my wife smiled back on that as she could not see anything wrong in this.
Only I knew that what was going on in my mind, I was again and again recalling sunitha in my mind, her smiling face and her physical appearance, moreover her married girl’s makeup which was really very arousing. Her luscious body with nice and bit fleshy thighs and medium sized boobs, which were I think bit heavier then what she had before marriage, and nice and arousing ass mounds which were bit wider now as compared to what she had before marriage.
I recalled, around half an hour back when I was sitting there couple of times sunitha’s bit of cleavage appeared to me whenever she tried to pick her son up from the floor as she was having a large neck of that t-shirt which she was wearing as a night suit and also couple of times I got glance of the thickness of her thighs, at that time recalling of past one hour was enough for me to arouse and as excepted,
my wife failed to convince me that it’s too late to have sex now. I fucked Deepa that night in missionary position while fantasizing sunitha in my mind and finally sank in my wives arms after cumming heavily in her fuckhole with in two minutes. After that Deepa slept sound but I was really very uneasy, I really don’t know what was happening to me,
it was not that I was not happy with my wife or my marriage, though there was difference in level of sexual desire between me and my wife even then I can say that, me and Deepa were like made for each other and on the other hand as far as I knew sunitha was also happy with her married life.
Anyway that night I could not resist and started fantasizing again about sunitha and may be because it was my unfulfilled desire to have oral sex with my wife, that is why I started fantasizing myself having oral sex with sunitha, and as expected after some time I got up and used toilet to shagged my load one more time while jerking and thinking about can say my first love sunitha.
Next day in the morning during daily courses before going to work I was regretting over my last nights mind state, I was having bit of guilt but it did not lasted for long because like everyday I got very busy and finally came in senses around 4- 4:30 when sunitha called me on my cell from her residence number straight away asking,
“kahan hai?” means where are you “office mein” I replied, “your best friend is here after 5 years, aur tu office mein kaam karr raha hai, very bad, tu shadi ke baad bahut change ho gaya hai” (means your best friend is here after 5 years, and you are working in office, very bad, you are changed after marriage) sunitha complained fluently like before without any hesitation.
“I am coming, leaving right now” that’s what I had to say after that, “better; I am making espresso, it will take 15 minutes, you better be here by then” It was really very frank and straight forward warning, like childhood friends give to each other. I reached there in bit more time given to me and had coffee with her. Deepa was yet to come home from her work place, so now we chit chatted bit freely.
I could see that sunitha was talking to me liberally in Deepa’s absence, as such there was no such topic but there was big difference in her gesture. After some time she spoke what I could see on her face from long time, “I am here just for few days, so I want you to come little early everyday, so that we can talk freely, I think Deepa will not mind that” there was a question with bit of doubt after an order.
I smiled on that and replied casually, “she will not mind as long as you will not try to seduce me”. With a word “bastard” she threw a cushion to hit me. Our chit chatting continued for more than an hour and she discussed almost whole five years of her married life and I too did that.
Couple of times she asked me one question in different words, “tu khush hai na Deepa ke saath?” (means, are you happy with Deepa) as if she had a doubt or she wanted to hear no from me but I said yes every time. I too asked her whether she is happy with her husband, and she accepted that she is happy.
After more than an hour I called my wife to come straight to sunitha’s house to have evening tea and as she has a schedule to pick up our child from the playschool she came and we further had good time together. By the time we got up to go, once again I was in same mental state as I was in last night, rather I could feel that my internal condition was even worse.
I was going crazy for sunitha, I wanted to sit for some more time but I could not. I invited sunitha at my place for Dinner and just then Deepa stared at me with surprise, not for any other reason except, that she did not had any preparations for dinner, especially of the type on which we can invite someone to dine.
But as we know words cannot be taken back, moreover sunitha accepted invitation readily saying, “yes I would love too have food cooked by Deepa”. Apart from this reason I think she too wanted to spend time with me, I am not sure if at that time she was in the same kind of mind state as I was in, or she just needed my company to spend next 10 days, as long as she was here at her mother’s place.
Finally after some more chit chatting at my place while having dinner, day ended with an obvious promise that I will be at her place for a coffee next day too, at that time Deepa was not with us as we, sunitha and me were coming out of the house. That night too I made love to my wife and I think this time Deepa could sense that I am not normal,
though she did not spoke anything about this but she could see that I am heavily aroused and need her and she made love to me to fulfill my urge and we slept almost naked in each other’s arms. Next day till I started thinking about moving out of the office to have coffee with her, I was mobbed by sunitha’s thoughts. Later once again I and sunitha were having tea and this time on the terrace.
After some casual conversation I asked her with bit of smile while pointing at particular corner, exactly where we kissed each other, “Do you remember this place” “Hmmm… I knew it, ki tu bina bole nahi rahega” I laughed on that and replied, “that means you remember” “yes off course, it was my first kiss” “and mine too” I replied in the end before going further, and spoke again, “by the way, you never told me, you liked it or not?”
sunitha blushed as I was looking into her eyes while asking her. “don’t feel shy, just say tujhe achha lagga tha ya nahi” I asked her again while looking at her face, “hmmm….. obviously……… that’s why I did that again” sunitha replied in very soft words, I was smiling, “I really miss those days” I spoke casually while sipping my tea, “me too” she replied in the same fashion.
“you know we could have gone further” once again I spoke while looking at her face, just to see her expressions, “chup karja ab” (means shut up) she replied with bit of smile, “come on, tell me” I asked her, “what?” she asked back looking at me face, “you wanted me to go further, isn’t it?” sunitha remained silent but smiled on that without looking at me.
“Tell me” I forced her to answer, she just moved her head to say yes while sipping, without looking at me. “Then why you told me not to touch you”, sunitha looked at me, and spoke after few seconds in a very soft voice, “I was really very scared”, I laughed a bit on that and continued looking into her eyes, she was blushing and I was enjoying her state.
“tu bhi to darra hua tha, unless you would have tried going further” ( means you were also scared ) sunitha spoke in the teasing tone “I did not had Condoms at that time, unless I would have gone further” I replied instantly using my wit. “you mean you would have done that?” she asked me in bit arbitrary anger while smiling gesture, “yes why not?” I continued teasing her in the same fashion, “here, on the terrace?”
she asked back in the same fashion, “yes, there is enough space” I replied while pointing my hand on the big terrace, “I would have killed you” she spoke while smiling, “after that, no problem, jo karna tha wo to kar leta ek baar” sunitha did not had anything to reply that and she continued looking at me as she has not seen me being this much naughty ever while talking.
“fir tujhe mujse shaadi karni padti” means “then you had to marry me” sunitha spoke after thinking for few seconds, “any day with pleasure” I replied instantly, “you are not happy with Deepa?” sunitha asked me old question while looking at me, “I never said that,….. I am happy” “then why are you saying that” sunitha asked back, “just joking yaar, why you get serious every time”
sunitha continued looking at my face as if she is trying to read my brain, “tell me” she asked back, “what” I spoke, “were you interested in me?” she asked me in soft voice, as if she already knew the reply, “Hmmmm,,,yes…” I replied and then spoke again, “I mean, I never realized this for long time and then your marriage got fixed I never dared to talk to you after that” “why?” she asked back and then spoke again,
“We were so close, you would have told me”, “because you needed a rich guy” I replied while making fun of her, as she use to tell me sometimes what type of guy she need. “So you are happy with Deepa?” once again she asked same question, “oh God not again” this time I spoke in sarcastic tone. “I think you are not happy with your marriage”
I spoke casually just to tease her, though I knew that she is fine “no it’s not that, I am just little jealous” she replied freely like a friend, “jealous?” it was an obvious question from my side, “hmmm…. you two spend lot of time together” “Rishi always remains busy” sunitha completed her sentence in two parts casually. “I hope….you are not starved! I mean tum log sex to karte ho na?”
I spoke whatever came in my mouth and it really went bad, I immediately got reply from her hand as sunitha slapped me hard on my shoulder and spoke just one word in response, “bastard” “what?” I cried in pain, “I didn’t mean that” “then, what” I asked back, “he comes very late, and you know me, I can’t live without talking, I get bored” sunitha replied bit angrily (arbitrary),
“Thank God, you don’t have that problem, unless as a best friend I had to help you out” I replied quickly, and as a response she just smiled a and looked at me as if she is warning me to stop teasing her. Anyway all in all I had good time that evening too and by the end when Deepa my wife was suppose to come we came down to the hall and sunitha casually told me to make a out station trip around Delhi, same day up down sort of trip.
As such I had only one choice, that is Agra, I was well aware of that city because it was my wife’s home town and a good tourist spot too. Though sunitha had seen TAJ earlier, but she said ok to it, and rest of the planning got fixed as Deepa came back home. Leaving a day in between, we (me, my wife Deepa and sunitha with our kids )
moved on Saturday very early in the morning, around 5:00, had breakfast on the way and reached there, visited one of the seven wonders and by 2 we were at my In-laws place and had lunch. As such in presence of Deepa our conversation was casual but we did not stopped teasing each other on one or the other matter, exactly like friends do.
As such I did not had anything in my mind at that time and we had a plan to move back in max 2 hours. But things changed a bit and my mother in law forced us to stay there only, for the night, as next day was Sunday. It would have been possible if just me and my wife would have came, as sunitha was with us so it seemed impossible,
I argued for that and finally my mother in law asked me if Deepa can stay for couple of days, as my father-in-law was suppose to come to Delhi on Tuesday, and Deepa can come back along with him. As such I did not had any problem with that and I left final decision on Deepa, if she is ok with it. Truly speaking till that time or even after that I did not had anything in my mind.
I knew this that now I will be alone with sunitha till Delhi for at least 4-5 hours and not even for a fraction I thought about this that I will be doing anything with her. As such in the past or even in present we never lacked opportunities to get alone, so it was very casual. Anyway soon we were rushing towards home, just me and sunitha with her baby boy.
After some time till I got out of city’s traffic we started chatting again. Well friends here I will say that our conversation on the way to Delhi is integral part and reason of whatever happened between me and sunitha and I must tell you that most of our conversation on the road was in Hindi and I have tried my best to translate it to English, so I may make mistake in writing them as I am little weak in English.
Anyway if I will get back to the incident then I will say, once again we were chit chatting and once again I could see that sunitha was feeling free in Deepa’s absence, and finally after some time I talked to her about this casually saying that “why you get conscious while talking to me in Deepa’s presence” “nahi to” she replied in NO and the tone was as if she is caught, “come on, speak up” I insisted her casually.
“Is it very prominent” she asked back, “yes” I replied with one word. “No, as such there is nothing like this” she replied, trying to avoid the matter. “Come on, why are you getting conscious now, she is not here”. sunitha smiled on that and finally uttered “I don’t know why, whenever she is there, tujhse baat karte hue thoda sa hesitation hota hai, I hope she don’t mind whatever I say”
I could see that whatever she said was true. “no no, don’t worry, tune abhi tak mujhe seduce karne ki koshish kahan ki hai” (means you have not tried to seduce me till now) I replied partially in Hindi and English. “Stop it” she responded initially with it and then spoke, “by the way, you also change in her presence” “is it?” I asked back, “clearly, you never speak all this in her presence” she replied.
“Obviously, I cannot” I replied casually. “Does she know that thing?” sunitha asked back with a smile, “what?” “That kiss and all” she rephrased her question, “no, are you nuts?” I replied, “waise does your husband knows that” I asked her in continuation, “what? kiss?” “hmmm…” “no, waise bhi it was just a kiss, nothing much to talk about,
at least with Rishi (her husband) ”, “ok, you mean if we would have gone further then you would have talked to him about it” I spoke as if I am making fun of her statement, “No I didn’t mean that” she spoke again after a pause, “mera matlab tha ki kissing is a tiny thing, I mean before marriage kiss to almost har koi kar leta hai, rather few of my friends were like, doing everything before marriage with there boy friends”.
“And now they are married to the same person, I mean to their boy friends” I asked back while looking at her face. “None of them” she replied with little more than a smile. “If I would have done that with you, then I would have married you” I replied in Hindi, saying, “agar main tera saath waisa kuch karta to tujhse hi shaadi karta” “shut up” she smiled while saying that though I could see that she didn’t mind that,
“no, seriously I mean it” I replied confidently. “I know, this is a difference between you and those guys” then again she spoke, “that is why I like you, you are so down to earth, I mean you don’t keep anything in your heart, you just speak up” She replied rather praised frankness of my nature, and truly speaking friends for same thing I always praised sunitha among my other friends,
as she too was very down to earth and may be because of this we were best friends. Anyway I smiled on her statement and thanked her for compliment and then spoke again in teasing tone, “waise I am not that down to earth” then again I spoke, “I hide my feelings from people, and from you too” “what” “I mean what feelings” sunitha asked back in two parts, “nothing, don’t take it seriously”
I tried to avoid going further, though I knew that she will not leave the matter, “tell me” “what?” I asked back, “whatever you are hiding from me” “I mean whatever feeling you are hiding from me?” she spoke in insisting tone. I further tried to avoid but she continued insisting and finally I uttered, “yehi ki I wanted to make love to you before marriage” “that’s it” she asked as if she is asking is it all.
“yes” I replied, “you know what?” she spoke and after a small pause she spoke again when I looked at her, “even I wanted to do that with you” “especially after kissing, but I was so scared” sunitha replied in a soft voice and tone was like when we admit something. “then” I asked back with bit of smile, “then what?” she asked back that what I mean by “then”.
“I mean what you use to do it for that” I tried to ask her again and rephrased my question, even then she was unable to understand what I wanted to ask and she asked again, “what are you saying, I am not getting you” and one more time I rephrased my question and this time it was clears, as it was totally in Hindi and words were, “I mean jab tera man mere saath wo karne ka karta tha to tu kya karti thi”
(I mean what you use to do whenever you use to feel like doing it with me) as I said all words were in Hindi and they were this time she understood what I meant as she smiled a lot and finally spoke in the same gesture “nothing” “don’t lie,… I know what you use to do” I replied and tried further pulling the matter, “what” she asked back in same smiling gesture,
“same thing which I use to do it, for you” I replied without using any such words, sunitha further smiled and could not control her laugh and asked, “tell me what you use to do it” “same which you use to do it for me” I tried to make fun of the talk while moving around the matter without saying any such word till then. “Shut up, I never use to do it” sunitha replied immediately,
“then how do you know what I am saying” “I know what you are saying,….. aur wo har koi karta hai, there is nothing to feel shame in this, it’s normal” “Ok,….. so you admit that you use to do it, while thinking about me” I continued and this time question was very clear and straight forward, and for those readers who still cannot understand what we were talking about was Masturbation,
from last few minutes our conversation was moving round and round about our tendency to Masturbate while thinking about each other. Anyway when I asked her does she admit that she use to do it while thinking about me, she replied with her favorite sentence, “just shut up” “come on tell me, yes or no? There is nothing to feel shame in this, it’s normal”
I teased her using her own statement, and insisted her one more time, finally she spoke while controlling her laugh “yes I use to do it, now just shut up” “ok” I replied with one word and busted in a laugh and she too started laughing without any hesitation. “Seriously I really miss those days” I spoke after a minute or so when we were over with a giggle.
“Me too” sunitha replied. “Sometimes I feel ki somehow if we cane go back in the time” she spoke in continuation. “In that case I will not miss any opportunity” I replied confidently with in fraction, sunitha smiled silently while looking into my eyes as I turned towards her while driving and then spoke in a soft voice, “this time even I will not stop you” and her words in Hindi were “main bhi tujhe manna nahi karungi” I just laughed casually on that.
Truly speaking even till that time I could not think of doing anything like that with her, everything was going so casual. Anyway continued talking like that and our subject of conversation got changed for a while on sunitha’s daily schedule. I was driving reasonably fast and we were expecting that with this speed in couple of hours or may be more, we will be home,
and at my end I was not at all in hurry, I wanted to enjoy this casual conversation with my best friend as long as possible and I think sunitha too wanted same and just after a minute she told me to stop the car to have tea and as she said I stopped at one dhaba and we had tea. In between I talked to Deepa for a while and sunitha called at her home.
By the end when we both were almost over with our tea, sunitha spoke “I don’t want to go home”. “kya matlab”, means “what do you mean” I spoke, “then where do you want to go” I asked back in Hindi and words were “fir kahan jana hai”. She smiled a bit while looking into my eyes and the spoke after few more seconds, “In my past”.
“Not possible, it’s a simple car not a time machine” I spoke while giving empty cups to the hotel boy along with whatever money he said. “Believe me its possible” she replied. “Then tell me how it is possible” I asked back while reversing the car and looked into her eyes for couple of seconds before picking up the speed on the highway. “think about it” she replied again.
“ok” I replied with just one word and then remained silent, she too was silent, after may be 2-3 minutes she spoke again, just one word “what happened” “I am thinking” I replied with a smile and this reply made her laugh and she slapped me lightly on my shoulder and again spoke just one word, “Idiot”. “What” this time I asked back after getting a note Idiot.
“aur kya” sunitha, replied with bit of smile, “ok you tell me, how it is possible” I asked her and looked at her face after saying this, she blushed a bit and then spoke, “forget it”. “Ok” I replied, “what Ok” she asked back just then, “u said forget, I forgot” I replied and once again she busted in laugh and slapped me again on my shoulder and then spoke after few seconds,
“let’s go to our school tomorrow” “ok” I replied and then she said, “we can meet our other school friends, whoever is in touch like Shewta, Anu and Reena, all three are in Delhi” “ok” once again I replied with just one word, sunitha spoke again “who else is in your touch?” “Rohit, Prakash and Harsh” I replied. “I don’t want to meet them, bahut line marte the ladkiyon pe”
she replied recalling past school life, “wo to aaj bhi maarte hain” I spoke with smile, “how come you have friendship with them you are so different from them” “I don’t think, I am just one of them,….. I use keep things up to me and never tried anything and they kept on trying, this is the only difference” I completed my statement with couple of pauses “well it’s a big difference” “whatever” I replied,
then there was no words for a while and after few seconds, sunitha spoke again, “By the way I want to tell you something” after a small pause she spoke again “ I thinks there is no harm in telling you this now” “What” “do you remember Sheetal” she asked me “hmmmm…ya Sheetal Malhotra” I recalled her surname, “yes” sunitha confirmed her and then spoke,
“she use to like you” “what” I was little surprised, “how do you know” I asked her back, “she wanted to communicate this through me” she smiled while saying that. “Then why didn’t you tell me?” I spoke in Hindi and words were “to tune mujhe bataya kyun nahi?” “bas nahi bataya” “but why” I insisted her to speak and reflected myself bit excited after knowing this fact that one of her friend had a crush on me.
“Do you ever liked her?” sunitha asked back, “no….but uski fantasy to karta hi tha” I replied in excitement “Tu Sheetal ki bhi fantasy karta tha?” she asked back in surprise, “then what, main almost sabki fantasy karta tha, including you” I replied instantly, without thinking much. And result was almost same like before, once again I got slapped on my shoulder.
“what,….. tu bhi to karti thi” ( even you use to do it) I cried in pain before saying that. “main sirf teri karti thi” “kya” I asked back immediately, and she spoke in continuation, “fantasy” “Okkkeeee” I replied with one long ok with a big smile and my tone of saying ok was like as if I am teasing her. “What” she asked me with one word why I am teasing her.
“So this was the reason you never told me anything about Sheetal” “yes….. now stop it” then again she spoke to herself after a very small interval, “it was my mistake why I told you that?” I laughed a bit on that and spoke, “you are angry just because I use to fantasize about other girls also” “just forget it, I don’t want to talk you about that”
sunitha seemed not much but bit angry this time, “come on speak up, yes or no” I asked again, “yes….” After a small pause sunitha continued “all men are alike” “I told you, I am just one of them, you were not ready to accept” I spoke casually. She did not uttered a word this time, spoke again, “come on, what is wrong with you”
“I mean it’s over now that was past, aur ye sab har koi karta hai, there is nothing to feel bad about this, it’s normal” I repeated almost her whole statement again. And then again spoke and my exact words were, “aur fir fantasy mein to variety kar hi leni chahiye, actual life mein to uski possibility bahut kam hoti hai”.
Hearing this statement sunitha turned and laughed a bit on this which I think she was controlling from last few minutes and her laugh showed that she was not that angry or upset with my statement, and I spoke again, “You know many times I use to think about two at a time, sometimes Anu and Sheetal and if you remember Pushpa, and her friend Jyoti.
And before I would have gone further in this I heard “Just shut up” from her, once again sunitha tried to stop me going further while laughing. “Come on, this the only way we can go back into time, just take out whatever you had in your mind at that time, I promise I will not mind” I tried to motivate her to speak instead of saying “shut up” again and again.
After couple of seconds I spoke again, “tell me” “kya?” she asked back, “whatever you had in your mind at that time” I rephrased my question “I have already accepted that” “what” I tried to make her speak in clear words. She stared at me as she could sense what I am trying, “just open up yaar, why are you feeling shy, just speak freely”
I motivated her again “main hamesha apne saath teri fantasy karti thi, sirf teri and no one else” sunitha spoke after few seconds and by the end her tone changed into complaining, when she said that she only use to fantasize me and just me. “come on relax, why are you getting upset, with that” (knowing the fact that apart from her I use to fantasize other girls also)
then again I spoke, “maine apne life ki first kiss to tujhe hi ki thi na? And I cannot forget that kiss through out my life” (means it was you I kissed first time in my life). She smiled a bit and spoke “even I cannot forget that moment”. “By the way, I have very interesting idea to get back into our past” I spoke, and again spoke just after a second, “provided you don’t mind that”.
“What?” sunitha replied while looking at me and I could see that she was smiling rather it was much more than a smile. “I think you’ve understood” I replied while looking at her. “I knew it, ki tu ye bolega”…. “how dare you?” she spoke with a pause between two and tried to reflect anger but could not control her smile. “what? I haven’t said anything till now”
I tried to find escape from my statement, though I could see that she has understood what I was about to say. “I know what you want to say” she replied while pointing finger and could not control her laugh. “tell me… how do you know, I have not uttered a single word?” I continued arguing and defending myself.
“I know, because I know you very well” she replied, “no…you know because we think alike” I replied instantly, “whatever” she ended with that. “Then think like me, why are you saying no to it” I replied with a laugh on very next second, and sunitha reacted with, “shut up” and this time her gesture was little serious, so I remained silent. After that there was no conversation for a while, and she started looking out from the glass.
Friends here I would like to explain matter of the conversation to those readers who could not understand whatever we talked in last couple of minutes, I was about to ask her if we can kiss again at the same place, as a way to get into our past. And sunitha understood that instantly without any confusion.
Anyway after may be couple of minutes of silence, I started again, “come on, why are you getting angry?” she looked at me and spoke in soft voice “I am not angry” “Ok then tell me” I asked back, “what”, “your decision, yes or no?” she smiled on that and uttered “you are a bastard” “Thanks for the compliment” I took the bow in a way and then asked again, “yes or no” “are you crazy?”
she tried to get angry but she was still smiling, moreover I was not at in the mood of getting dominated, though at that time I was not at all serious, I was just trying to make fun, or you can say just wanted to tease her or pull her leg of her thought of getting into our past. “Ya that’s true, I am crazy” I replied instantly, then asked her again, “tell me, yes or no?” “obviously no” sunitha replied, “Ok no problem”
I spoke casually as if it doesn’t matter to me and then spoke again, “it was just an idea to live in our past one more time, that’s it” my tone was very casual as if I have not done anything wrong in asking her for a kiss even after her marriage. “Moreover this time we can correct our previous mistakes…….. I mean now we both know how to make a proper kiss and...
We can also go ahead for something for which we regret now” I spoke just in continuation without thinking much and later realized that indirectly I have asked her for having sex with me, in which we failed few years back when we kissed before our marriage. But truly speaking friends whatever I spoke it was pure reflexes and I really didn’t mean that, it just came out of my mouth.
Rather I think I must mention that, on the way to home apart from packed baby food many times she fed breast milk to her child and for that she lifted her dress but I did not tried to see at her at that time.
Anyway hearing that indirect proposal of having sex with me, sunitha looked at me and she was trying really hard to control her laugh which I could easily see. “Will you please shut up” she tried to get angry, but I laughed in reply. As I said I could see that she was trying to control her laugh and as I started she too started laughing.
“Please yaar just stop all this….. you are disturbing me” she spoke after a long giggle. “just relax yaar, you know I am joking, iss mein disturb hone wali kya baat hai?” I replied, “I know you are joking ……still” she replied “what” “forget it yaar, you won’t understand” she replied without looking at me.
I gave a thought to it for a fraction and asked her again, “tell me, what is the matter” “nothing serious, I told you that day” ….. “I get so bored there” ……..“I wish I would have settled here, in the same city” sunitha replied in two three parts. “Tell me how I am disturbing you” I asked what I wanted to know. “Nothing” she tried to avoid. “tell me na”. I insisted her to speak.
“Nothing, yaar,……” and then after a big pause, sunitha started again, “sometimes I just feel it would have been better for me if I would have married you” “you are a perfect husband” “you spend good time with Deepa( my wife) and you give importance to her career also, and Rishi (her husband) is just opposite to you” sunitha kept on saying and I continued listening as I was the only one to whom she could share her life.
And next few minutes she explained her husband’s mentality, his daily schedule and it was really very busy, moreover he never allowed sunitha to work also and that’s not for any other reason except a male’s ego that he is earning very high and he does not need any money earned by his wife. Certainly her husband was earning really good, nearly triple than mine.
Anyway sunitha explained her life for couple of minutes and then went silent, I looked at her, bit of water was floating in her eyes, I just wanted to ease the environment and wanted to relax instead of continuing same subject and for that once again I spoke, made statement on old subject of going back into past,
“hmmm… abhi bhi soch le, raat ko terrace par milte hain, tere liye thoda change ho jaayega aur tere bahane main bhi apne past mein ghoom aaunga?” (means, think about it, we will meet on terrace in the night, it will be a change for you and because of you even I will get a ride into my past).
Unexpectedly it hardly made any change into her mood and she turned her face to see out of window, neither she laughed nor she reflected any anger on that like before, her reaction was just nil to my statement. After that I too remained silent and after few minutes I switched on the stereo and continued going to home.
More or less after that we reached home and as such we did not had much conversation after that, as she tried to sleep for some time. By the time we reached home time was just more than 9:30 and we both were tired. sunitha invited me for dinner but I gave her an excuse that I am not hungry.
I could see that she was little upset and what I could do best to her to leave her alone for some time because I have tendency make joke out of everything and because of my jokes she was getting disturbed. I came back home, my parents were already up with their dinner, I had one bread sandwich with bit of packed juice and called my wife to chit chat for a while and finally landed on my bed with a laptop.
I was in very strange mind state, mixed up with lust and love, once again desire of getting intimate with sunitha was rising in my mind and I could feel the changes in my body because of that, slowly I was getting aroused and started getting hard, as I was continuously thinking about sunitha only
